Good People Of This Forum Hear Me Out Agony Nd Pain

Gud day blessed people in this forum.. I'm depressed, confused and sick about life. 
i am a guy struggling for survival. 
doing different sorts of menial jobs to cater for myself ever since i managed to graduated from secondary School.
life hasn't been fair to me. 
everyday is a battle for survival for me. 
i was raised up by a single parent. which is my mum. 
I have experienced several pains, sadness while growing up. 
but i always endured it.
cuz of my positive mindset that God has something better in stock for me. 
i always feel depressed and majorly ask God why did He created me, when He knew i would face this hard life. 

but due to all this i still believe that all these is a trial from Him. 
i want to further my education by all means 
i struggled to purchased jamb last year. 
and i made it, with a good score of 221 , after studying hard vigorously. 
i was happy. 
but unfortunately i wasn't be able to secured admission to the institution i chose. 
i feel down, i feel like committing suicide. 
i felt like i have been forsaken by God again. 
still yet i told myself i won't quit trying. 
but sincerely there's no money for me to purchase this year jamb, i have struggle all i could , but no one to help me. 
and the date is nearby is closing on 6th.
i finally give up. 
i open this thread today that someone might hear my story and purchase this form for me. 
this is all i want. 
this is only my last hope. i know there's good person out there. 
pls save me from this misery. 
and may God bless you all. amen